Back to Basics!

Last night I forgot just how good a hard spanking across the knee feels ; )

A hard spanking that is quickly built up evokes all kinds of emotions in me, I love every part of the ritual, laying across his knee, feeling his hands on my neck, the way he talks to me. I feel calm and my mind starts to clear of any worry and stress. I love the ringing in my ears as the slaps get harder, I love the feeling in my pussy as it starts to hurt and I begin to zone off, I get very wet. This entire process makes me feel very submissive and I lose inhibition, anything that is said to me at this point has a great impact, and I feel vulnerable. This is not the same vulnerability as with an intense scene, where pain or fear play is involved, but a more sensual one. The pain is not raw and intense but become's quite muted and hypnotic.

Things that I love.......

I wanted to share some of the kinky things that make me very happy : )

A nice hard over the knee spanking,
Feeling Sir's cum all over my face and breasts,
Been tied up and flogged until my head goes fuzzy and I cant take it anymore,
The taste of Sir's cum,
Feeling a sensation overload
Feeling the rope trail across my skin as I am being tied
The sensation of being fingered and filthy words being whispered into my ear
Being on all fours, crawling towards Sir
Feeling helpless, scared, but very wet
The sense of being owned and feeling helpless during anal sex
The fear of being blindfolded and not knowing what is coming next,
Asking permission to cum and completing tasks
The sensation of being used and made to feel like a dirty slut
Bruises
Dressing up for Sir
Feeling his hands tightly around my neck
Wearing my collar
The feeling when my mind is blank and he is the only focus
Having my hair pulled back tightly as I'm being fucked

My First Post!!!

Wow this is harder than I thought, I write a journal most days but of course that's very private... where to begin! If anyone reads this blog and would like to say hello, or ask me any questions please do.
 
You will see from my profile a bit about my relationship and my life style at the moment. I am very passionate about wanting to submit to my dominant who I love, and we have been on this journey together for about 1 year. I can honestly say things have not always been plain sailing, and for every fantastic experience, and revelation there has also been lots of confusion, hurt and a few arguments along the way.
 However what I can say is how far we have come in 1 year. To give you an idea I am no longer a heavy drinker, smoker, with a bad attitude and a stressful job, controlling mother and severe body issues. I can now be fully naked in front of Sir without being fearful and trying to control the scenario ( however I still have moments ).  The other issues I will write about in the near future, include my life long battle with depression which I still have, and how this can interfere with our lifestyle.
 I have a need to submit, I like to be controlled in life by Sir and also during sex, I enjoy erotic pain, and a host of other kinks that I will go on to write about. xxx

This is me : )